THE FUTURE WHEN BEING IN THE FLOW OF LIFE

The lesson I have learned so far is that I am always in recovery. It is there in the back of my mind and also a part of daily life now and in the future. It does not mean for me to expect less from my life but to be more in charge when I have setbacks. Before when I had a relapse I would have asked for more help when I felt more anxious, but now I make an appointment with myself at my kitchen table in order to face the relapse and find a solution.

I now accept that the future can bring good experiences compared to before when the future was seen as a time full of problematic events accompanied by low self-esteem and low energy levels. It is not that I take for granted my well being but I do look forward to developing my involvement and trying to get closer and closer to the real meaning of my life. I am looking for more than to just “make do” and be on the margins of society. I want to be involved in this project of life just as any other person.

In a nutshell if I want to describe what happened when I started regaining meaning in my life, my first focus was to bring back balance back into my life. I developed my self confidence with insights and improved my interactions with others. The process means to be in this flow of life with my full energy. Being responsible for my life situation is the best goal I can ever have in life.

Sylvie Albert