The main purpose for me is to regain the meaning of my life. It is a complex process but nonetheless it is achievable. When I started regaining hope (with treatments and support) I realized there was more to life than being stable or compliant. Yes it was a cornerstone in improving my functioning when I accepted to be treated but well being is more complex than a cure recipe.

Paradoxically I really had to put myself in a context where I was on the same level as other citizens and not in a protected environment where sick people survive (are put). It is always a challenge because I face my own limits on one hand and I have to deal with prejudices and stigmas in society on the other.

SINCE 1998

I want to feel like a full time citizen and so I get involved in my activities with a resilient attitude. With this frame of mind I can appreciate my participation rather than feel overwhelmed with what is unfair or detrimental to people with a mental disorder. In my early forties I became ready to take on a more complete role in society when I realized I could improve my relationships with other people and that there is no shame in having a mental disorder. I started to go to support groups at AMI-Quebec and get together meetings with other patients in the late 90’s. I learned from these discussions that recovery works in so far as I participate in the process of well-being. There is a genuine approach according to my values.

I don’t believe in preachers or therapists who tell me that a couple of intensive therapy week-ends or a program of activities will resolve a mental health disorder. There is no quick fix but I do believe I can deepen my life values to maximize my chances to feel a part of the world around me just as other people with no mental disorder diagnosis do.
(Part 2 to be continued next week...)

Sylvie Albert